A miscarriage is a natural and common event. All told, probably more women have lost a child from this world than haven't. Most don't mention it, and they go on from day to day as if it hadn't happened, so people imagine a woman in this situation never really knew or loved what she had.
But ask her sometime: how old would your child be now? And she'll know.
- Barbara Kingsolver
I'm 30 weeks pregnant, but I should be 40. Friday would have been his or her due date. My heart is so torn on what I should be feeling. My heart aches for that little baby that I will never get to name, hold, know or watch grow. I'm ecstatic about meeting my little girl in September but I will always think about what could have been. What would he or she look like, what would they be like?
Losing the baby in October was very hard on me but I had Wyatt to keep me strong. But here I am again, 9 months later, reminded of my what could have been.
I just want him or her to know this. Even though I didn't get to meet you, you are still in my heart and you will always be mine. I will never forget the day I found out I was pregnant with you and I will never forget the day that we were suppose to meet. I love you forever.
My due date would have been June 28th, this Friday. I can't imagine a better way to spend my day than with my best girlfriends at the beach. I'm sure that day will come and I will have a heavy heart, but I will also feel very blessed and I'll be surrounded by positive, supportive, amazing women in my life.
Every day is truly a gift. Cherish it, embrace it, and don't take it for granted.
Every night since the loss, I have snuck into Wyatt's room after he has fallen asleep and felt him breath, watched him sleep, kissed him on the cheek and told him that I love him.
Whether your a Mother who has experienced a loss, or one who wants children and who has never been given a chance, I will say a prayer for you. We will never know what could have been, but we will always be reminded of what is.
For all of those amazing Mothers out there, hug your babies tight for me and tell them that you love them today, tomorrow and forever.
