This week was very exciting for me because I was waiting to start my first fertility treatments in the following months and my testing started this week. On Monday November 29th, I was laying on my couch, when a smell wafted into my nose. I thought to myself “that is absolutely disgusting” and remember asking the dog to close his mouth. Yup, my cute pup was laying on the floor, chewing on a toy, smelling up my nose! I remember the odor, it was so strong and potent. I kind of had an idea in my head after that that maybe I will take a pregnancy test, you know, just so I reduce the stress so my cycle wouldn’t be delayed.
So, I went into the bathroom, did my business, and immediately looked down at the test…two lines. My hands started to shake and all I could think about is that this could not possibly be right. Honestly, I didn’t know what to do. My husband, was watching television, oblivious at this point that we were going to have a baby. I played this part over and over in my head so many times. I even bought an adorable “you’re going to be a Daddy” card over a year ago that I was planning on giving to him or telling him in some other cute way. Out of sheer excitement I asked him to please come upstairs. There was a shake in my voice and so he came running like something was terribly wrong. He said “what’s wrong” I looked up at him and said “we’re going to have a baby” then I burst into tears and hugged him tightly. This is one of my most precious memories in my entire life.
After this, I immediately called my Mom. We held a conversation and I let her rant about different things until I finally couldn’t hold it in anymore. As soon as an opportunity opened, I said “By the way, I’m pregnant”. She was in absolute shock and kept asking me if I was kidding. She wasn’t there with me, but I know she had tears in her eyes. She had known what I went through for this to happen and had been giving me encouragement and praying for me for quite some time. She once told me almost a year ago that she had a dream that I would get pregnant in November. I remember specifically thinking that she was completely wrong and how awful it would be to wait that long. Well, here it is, November 29th, and I’m pregnant.
After I got off the phone with her, I immediately took another test out of disbelief, then another, then another. Those beautiful two lines were just as dark as ever on every single test that I took. Several positive tests later and I knew, this was really happening.
Looking back previous to this week, I remember eating with my Mom at McDonalds. I literally ate an entire breakfast and within 20 minutes felt extreme hunger again. I remember her saying something like “You’re hungry again?” Other than that, I really can’t think of anything that was different about this month from any of the prior months. All I knew is that this month was now special. It was the month that I found out that I was going to be a Mother.
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